Best 4 years of my life*

Did you think that I was only goin to put one picture up this year for our anniversary?? Yes. so did I but when I went through them I cant just pick one.. their all my favorites:) I'm sure that I put the same ones on last year.. and the year before that but at least I will have lots of memories of them.. of that special day.
I cant believe its been 4 years..... Somedays I feel like I should be goin over to his apartment and other days I feel like man how are we not 70 years old yet.. haha jk its not that bad! How does someone even begin to some up their love for someone.. in this case I never will. Jake is my better half. I love the person that he is and that the person he has turned me into. He is always so positive and doesn't have a mean bone in him. He is the hardest workin person I know. I love that he can fix anything.. and I mean anything. He is the best daddy in the world and little Pais loves him ever so dearly:) I love the way he looks at her.. I love the way he looks at me. I love his family so so much and I'm so grateful they let me marry him and treat me like their own. I cant wait to see what life brings us.. He is nearing the end of his school days forever and I am so happy. Pais and I cant wait to have our love back and to have a "normal" family life again. I'm grateful for Jake and for all that he does for me and for the life lessons he has taught me.. how did I get so lucky? I wish that I could relive that day again.. so so beautiful and I will never forget the feelin I had when we were knealin across the altar lookin into each other eyes and just the love that I felt for him was almost unbearable.. I never thought that love could get deeper and stronger but man was I wrong. I love that Jake man so so much.. So glad I get to cal him mine..... Forever and ever:) Happy 4 years my lover love!!!

May*

Where will I be a month from today you ask????? To this place baby with some of my favorite people...... and I.CANT.WAIT!!!

just pics*

Pais's best friend Lybee came to town.. cutest girls ever!!

Little daddy daughter time.. * its pais's favorite time:)

cousin Hunter makin pais laugh.. so so  cute!

Her first swing at the park.... love you Monroes:)

love that Boston!!

All the grandbabies born into the family within a year- Carson, Pais, Ashton, and Jack

Look at these boys..  never a dull moment at Nannas house..

First grandchildren pics with all the new babies in it!

Jake and cousin Gavin with Pais and Keagan

My beautiful sister with cutest Carson..isn't he the cutest?

My bestie Ape with Boston and sister Meagan and little Jack. dont you love all his hair?

First family pic with everyone in it.. the last family picture was takin a year and a half ago but my sister Bri wasn't in it and the family picture before that was takin a year before that but Kamee wasn't in the family yet.. so yay for new family pics... and we happen to all be in the same room at the same town so we thought we better get one...

One day Pais was ballin and she had these huge alligator tears.. so what do we do? Put her in front of the mirror and she completely stops... love it!!

Thats all folks:)

Aunt Debra:)

Debra Madsen Christianberg, Utah Our loving wife, mother, grandmother and friend Debra Jensen Madsen, 57, passed away March 31, 2011 in Gunnison, from a long, courageous battle with cancer. Debra was born January 4, 1954 in Gunnison, Utah to Calvin and Matilda Anderson Jensen of Mayfield. She graduated from Gunnison Valley High School and Snow College. She married her lifelong sweetheart, David Greaves Madsen, in the Manti Temple on June 20, 1975. David and Debra have lived in Christianburg their entire married life where they raised three hard-working, faithful sons. Debra was her sweetheart's personal accountant, secretary and office manager for their family businesses. Debra was active in the community. David and Debra enjoyed traveling with their family and friends. She was an avid gardener, quilter, home decorator, cook, scrap booker and most of all, an amazing mother and grandmother. She was an active member of the LDS Church. Debra lived as the Savior taught with charity and love. Debra loved family time and she adored her grandchildren. Debra is survived by her husband, David; children: Matthew (Rebecca), Hines, Oregon; Michael (Emily) Christianburg; Trevor (currently serving an LDS Mission), four grandchildren; brothers, Roger (Bonnie) Jensen, Gunnison and Wesley (Kathy) Jensen, Mt. Pleasant; sister, Nancy Burdette, Mayfield. Preceded in death by her parents; father-in-law, Jack Madsen; sister-in-law, Michelle Madsen Ashton; brother-in-law, Paul Burdette; nephew, Stefane Tuttle. The family would like to express sincere gratitude to Dr. Dwight Inouye and staff, as well as doctors and nurses who provided such loving care this past year at the Gunnison Valley Hospital, Gunnison Home Health, Huntsman Cancer Institute and Gunnison Cancer Clinic. They also express appreciation to the Mayfield Ward Relief Society, family, friends and the community for their out pouring of love and concern. Funeral services will be held Monday, April 4, 2011 at 12:00 Noon at the

 This is a picture of Aunt Michelle and Aunt Debra several years ago-- now they are both in heaven and at the funeral they had this picture and A. Michelles daughter Mckell said this quote " I can't imagine heaven lookin any different than this picture right about now".. .. priceless:)

 Aunt Debras Family- Trever is currently serving a mission right now so he is not in the picture..

 Madsen Siblings

Madsen siblings and spouses

I am goin to miss Aunt Debra so so much. I along with many others had a very hard time with her death. I love that she is not in pain anymore and doesn't have to suffer anymore. From the moment I met Aunt Debra she has been the sweetest lady ever.. she would have done anything for anyone. At the funeral Mike told a story of his mother and he was telling us a few years back all of the Madsen siblings were on vacation and they were walkin back to their hotel one night and they had passed some hookers on the street and everyone was kinda lookin around at each other and once they got back to the hotel they were talkin about the hookers and how could anyone do that and Aunt Debra was like who are you guys talkin about and they had mentioned the hookers that they had passed and she was like "oh those nice young pretty ladies" hahaha she never saw the bad in people and was always positive..Kristyn, Tom, Jake and I got the privelage to sing " If the Savior stood Beside me" and it was such a pretty accompaniment. I kept thinkin about her 4 little grandchildren and how sad for them to lose a grandma at their young age. I lost my Grandma Blad when I was 8 and I feel like she has been gone forever. I'm so grateful for the memories that I made with her and I'm sure that those grandchildren will be raised knowin her as if she is still here. She was such a beautiful lady who will be missed so much. Aunt Debra give my mom a hug for me as I'm hopin you guys have already met. Can't wait to be with you again. xoxoxo

Someone*

Someone I love lost their baby yesterday. Someone I love lost their life last night. Someone I know took their life yesterday.  Someone who was apart of my life for 14 years- whom I called grandma lost their life last week.Two people that I love are getting a divorce.  Someone I love lost someone they love over the weekend. Why is Pandora playin so many sad songs today?? I have so many emotions right now..just when I start stressing about money and where and when Jake will get a job I have to sit back and just enjoy everyone and everything in my life. In times as this I always refer back to the quote "I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it"... I hate that when it rains... it pours! Sorry this is such a downer post... I feel like curling up in a ball with Pais and just crying...apart of me loves crying.. its very theraputic for me and healthy. I hate that so many people I love are in pain right now. I wish I could take the pain away from them. I do love the fact that I get to see so many loved ones soon despite why were there.. This is just another testimony to me that I ask myself- "am I doin the things I need to to get where I'm goin and to be with my loves someday?" Am I being the person and treatin people with love and respect that would maybe save a life?  Am I being the kind of wife that I want/need to be so that the "thought" never crosses Jake's mind. Life is so so good my friends and we need to cherish everyday life, and the people who our in our lives before its to late...I love my life and the people who are in it and I love to meet new people everyday and to hear their stories. Thanks for letting me jaunt down my thoughts. AMEN.

Grandma Dot Knott*

This would be my awesomest Grandma Dot Knott (don't you love that:) she is the. funnest. funniest. ever!! When we were up visitin Jakes grandpa Jack in the hospital in Salt Lake we surprised my grandma with a visit. She would murder me if she knew I posted this picture of her. She had never met Paisley so we just had to visit her. Plus I hardly ever get to see her so I thought since I was in the area I we had to stop by and see her. I love her so very much. She is seriously the funnest grandma ever. We were blessed growin up to be able to do lots of fun things with my Knott family. Lake Powell, river rafting, campin at Coalville, and many other memories:) I will miss her dearly when her time comes to go back and be with my grandpa, my mom, her son steven, and many more family! I am tryin my hardest everyday to make sure I will be with them again someday:) Thats just something I don't want to miss out on! Love you Grandma Knott!!
p.s. don't you love how Pais is smilin in our 3 generation pic? That was right when she started smilin and I was so glad we got it in this picture.

TRUST

We got this quote a couple weeks ago in church and I LOVE it!

"You show your trust in Him when you listen with the intent to learn and repent and then you go and do whatever He asks. If you trust God enough to listen for His message in every sermon, song, and prayer in this conference, you will find it. And if you then go and do what He would have you do, your power to trust Him will grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed with gratitude to find that He has come to trust you."

  -Pres.Henry B Erying

Can't wait for conference this weekend! I always come away with a whole new lookout on life and just fresh!!