Someone*

Someone I love lost their baby yesterday. Someone I love lost their life last night. Someone I know took their life yesterday.  Someone who was apart of my life for 14 years- whom I called grandma lost their life last week.Two people that I love are getting a divorce.  Someone I love lost someone they love over the weekend. Why is Pandora playin so many sad songs today?? I have so many emotions right now..just when I start stressing about money and where and when Jake will get a job I have to sit back and just enjoy everyone and everything in my life. In times as this I always refer back to the quote "I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it"... I hate that when it rains... it pours! Sorry this is such a downer post... I feel like curling up in a ball with Pais and just crying...apart of me loves crying.. its very theraputic for me and healthy. I hate that so many people I love are in pain right now. I wish I could take the pain away from them. I do love the fact that I get to see so many loved ones soon despite why were there.. This is just another testimony to me that I ask myself- "am I doin the things I need to to get where I'm goin and to be with my loves someday?" Am I being the person and treatin people with love and respect that would maybe save a life?  Am I being the kind of wife that I want/need to be so that the "thought" never crosses Jake's mind. Life is so so good my friends and we need to cherish everyday life, and the people who our in our lives before its to late...I love my life and the people who are in it and I love to meet new people everyday and to hear their stories. Thanks for letting me jaunt down my thoughts. AMEN.

Grandma Dot Knott*

This would be my awesomest Grandma Dot Knott (don't you love that:) she is the. funnest. funniest. ever!! When we were up visitin Jakes grandpa Jack in the hospital in Salt Lake we surprised my grandma with a visit. She would murder me if she knew I posted this picture of her. She had never met Paisley so we just had to visit her. Plus I hardly ever get to see her so I thought since I was in the area I we had to stop by and see her. I love her so very much. She is seriously the funnest grandma ever. We were blessed growin up to be able to do lots of fun things with my Knott family. Lake Powell, river rafting, campin at Coalville, and many other memories:) I will miss her dearly when her time comes to go back and be with my grandpa, my mom, her son steven, and many more family! I am tryin my hardest everyday to make sure I will be with them again someday:) Thats just something I don't want to miss out on! Love you Grandma Knott!!
p.s. don't you love how Pais is smilin in our 3 generation pic? That was right when she started smilin and I was so glad we got it in this picture.

TRUST

We got this quote a couple weeks ago in church and I LOVE it!

"You show your trust in Him when you listen with the intent to learn and repent and then you go and do whatever He asks. If you trust God enough to listen for His message in every sermon, song, and prayer in this conference, you will find it. And if you then go and do what He would have you do, your power to trust Him will grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed with gratitude to find that He has come to trust you."

  -Pres.Henry B Erying

Can't wait for conference this weekend! I always come away with a whole new lookout on life and just fresh!!

Sweetest Pais-

These toys make her tuckered out!

She LOVES the mirror.. she could be the grumpiest ever and if you put her in front of the mirror out comes the smiles:)

SEE NO EVIL!!

These are some recent pics of Pais.. man do I love her!! I did a post yesterday and if you haven't checked out the video.. you must!! Its hilarious... anyways couple things I forgot to mention things I love about her
- Love the way she puts her tongue through her binky-- how is that possible? Well her bink has big holes on each sides and while she is suckin on it she will stick her tongue through it.. its funny and quite interesting at the same time
- I love the way she breathes.. it is rather loud and its actually a pet peeve of mine when people breathe loud but I love P's loud breathing.. that means she's concentrating:)
- Love the way she sometimes sucks on her thumb while she is eatin... multi tasker is you will:) She gets that from me.. i can never just be doin one things.. Im a kill 2 birds with one stone kind of girl...

4 months old:)

 

I was plannin on postin lots of pics I have taken but our gay internet is being stupid and wont let me upload any at the moment so will save that for next time. I hope you all get to view this video cause it is the cutest ever and I'm sure everyone that has kids has similiar videos like this but I will cherish this forever:)

 Weight- 12.6   23%

Height- 24 1/2  61%

Head Circumference- 15 1/2  11%

What I love about Paisley at 4 months-

-I love that she smiles SO MUCH!

-I love the way she plays with my chin when she eats

-I love that she has the cutest feet in the world and all her toes are the same height

-I love that she loves to look at her self in the mirror and gets so excited to see herself

-I love the way she talks in the morning to herself until I go and get her

-I love that she is so good when we I give her a bath.. I can't wait til she splashes all over me:)

-I love that she is so good to just go anywhere with me and she almost always falls asleep on the ride

-I love how she puts her arms out straight when Jake plays nemo with her.. so she really looks like she is swimming

-I love getting her dressed up for church

-I love how I can just lay her in her swing or on her playmat and she plays and plays while I do hair

- I love that she isn't afraid of people she will go to anyone and maybe she is to young to even know yet.. will see

- I love her chubby cheeks

-I love when people say she is chunky cause chunky babies are the CUTEST

-I love when she gets so excited to see Jake

- I love how she will sleep from 10-10 with only wakin up once in the night

- I love how she takes a little cat nap at 7 every night for a half hour so I can get dinner ready for Jake I know that I should probably not let her take that nap so she will go to bed earlier then 10 but we will get there soon. 

-She already has a bubble butt just like her mamma (Thank you Blad genes)

-I LOVE the noises that she makes 

-I just really love this stage in her life

-I love waking up to her every morning

-I love her hands.. they are the smallest things in the world

-I love my Paisley girl!!!

 

Yay!!!

I am proud to say that I am a proud new aunt of 2 of the cutest boys ever.. Pais is so glad she has 2 new cousins :) And Jake is happy to have 2 more nephews to tease.. haha  Congrats Alan, Jennie, Maddy, Mason,  and Jalen on your new addition of baby boy Ashton! Also.. Congrats to Travis and Meagan on baby boy Jack!!!

Baby Jack

Baby Ashton and proud sister and brothers

AMAZED*

Ok seriously I am in love with Liv International! I have not felt this great in so long! I have known about this product for about 2 years been on it for a year and I am NEVER goin with out it... I wish I had enough product to give ya all some to try cause you would all be hooked to. I have seen huge results in myself, my husband, my father in law, and so many other people in my life and new people that I meet everyday!! Jeff just recently invented this new product called SereZen. I haven't tried it yet but people that have say its miracle stuff- it helps with autism, any kind of addiction- whether it be drugs, alcohol, gambling, pornography, depression, anxiety, stress, or anything else where the mind is chattering and you just need a break. Jeff is a freakin genius and I sure do love the guy. You probably all think I'm crazy and that its just a phase in todays world and that this product will just fizzle out just like that others have.. it most certainly will not though. It is seriously changin lives and I use to think that was a bit much and I didn't want any part of it.. but when I see that its changed lives of the people that I love and care about the most thats when you know its for real:) I am AMAZED:) :)

PROM 2011*

I was able to go home for prom this year and I'm so glad.. it was such a blast! Last year for Camilles prom I was in Disneyland with our Dyreng family and it almost killed me but disneyland was a blast! Anyways I was able to do Sierra's hair and nails and its somethin I have always looked forward to growin up and when I finally decided to do hair. Sierra looked absolutely GORGOUS! She just glowed the whole night and her dress was so stunning as you can see. There theme was more partyish instead of love which I loved cause it was way more fun. A junior had asked Camille so she got to go also and she looked very beautiful also. I took like 100 pictures of them both and of course I wanted to put all of them on here but I just had to choose a few of my favs.. it was really hard! The night was great and I can't believe it was my baby sisters prom. Where does time go.. sometimes I think back and remember what Sierra use to say.. i loved her language.. she used to say lasteryear, yesternight "dad you got poop in their" (my dad had bad breath), heeeeaaarrrttt, and she use to pretend that anythin was people.. ketchup and mustard, toothbrushes, salt and pepper, and she looked big poofy dresses cause she loved to twirl, and she loved the feel of silk! She is such a sweet girl. I can't wait to see who she marries and where she takes her life. Thanks sierra for lettin me be apart of your day:)

Proposal Anniversary

 I LOVED this day--I remember it like it was yesterday. I can't believe 4 years ago today Jake proposed. Time has freakin flew by with the love of my life. So every year I have to tell the story of how it happened:)

 So Jake came over to my house one Sunday afternoon and I was not in the mood to go anywhere! I was so tired and just wanted to be home for some reason and he really wanted me to go down to Red Cliffs so he could try out these new hikin boots he bought for Havasupi Falls. I said ok I guess but as long as were back by 5:30 so I could get ready to go to a fireside. On the way down there I was being the biggest butt head ever.. I was just arguing with him over stupid stuff and it was all me... if I only knew what was about to happen. He later told me that he almost didn't propose because of the way I was acting.. hahaha So we got out of the car and walked around and everything was back to being awesome and in love. We just talked about life and how we can't wait to start our lives together whenever that time would come. Joking around Jake was like what would you do if I proposed today? I was like um I would freakin love you but we all know that's not goin to happen especially since there is no way you could have gotten the ring and there has been no time for him to be able to ask my dad. So we kept walkin around and went to this spot we had just preiously been to for Valentines Day with some other couple friends. He sat me down and got out his guitar and told me that he had finally made up some words to this tune that he had made up since highschool. So he sang it to me and I was just loving every minute of it and then when the song was over he was just lookin at me and I was just like oh that song was so cute ( let me remind you that I still had no idea he was about to pop the question ) and then he got down on one knee and he had sticky tacked the ring to the back of his guitar so he was so smooth and just wipped it right out and asked me.. AAAAHHHHHHHH I loved that moment in time. I was soooooo excited you don't even know! Of course I said yes and gave him a huge hug.. and then it came to me. Oh no he didn't ask my dad... so he told me that he had and I was like when the heck did you do that?? He told me that just 2 days before he met my dad in beaver for lunch and had a good talk to him and it went really well:) I love the relationship that my dad and Jake have. That is very important to me cause my dad is the most amazing person in my eyes whom I look up to alot. After it finally sunk in a little bit I started bawling and just told Jake how in love with him I was and for how sorry I felt after everything I had said on the car ride down. I was so excited to call everyone and tell them. I was on the phone from then on until like 11:30 at night. And if your wondering no I didn't end up goin to the fireside... haha GOOD FREAKIN TIMES! I want to relive that day again and I hope it stays fresh in my mind as if it just happened.. Love me that boy of mine:)

Here is the song he sang to me:)

   Our first kiss took me 10 feet from the ground. I just lay there as you sleep and think of you and me babe... like some kinds of magic. Can't explain how the pieces came to fit. So perfect the whole world around me seem to fade- But I'll never forget the time I looked in your eyes and I felt something I never felt in mylife. oh, oh my heart just melted, but if you'll take my hand we'll spend that rest of our lives in a quiet little town watch the sunset each night oh, oh and I'll always love ya...Your laugh makes me laugh, and time from you just seems so long, cant wait to come back home. I just wanna grasp to you and never let go. We'll just let time role along and on and on and on.. But I'll never forget the time I looked in your eyes and I felt something I never felt in my life, Oh oh my heart just melted. But if you'll take my hand we'll spend the rest of our lives in a quiet little town watch the sunset each night oh oh and I'll always love ya.. but the whole world will try to tell us we don't wanna be together. We'll make it through life of good times and stormy weathers. But I'll never forget the time I looked in your eyes and I felt something I never felt in my life, Oh oh my heart just melted. But if you'll take my hand we'll spend the rest of our lives in a quiet little town watch the sunset each night and oh oh Ill always love ya.....

So cute huh.. he sang it to me again at our wedding luncheon and I love to go back and watch it cause it brings back those memories from when the first time I heard it.. What a stud! My perfect dream proposal:)      THE END!